Di Sebalik Erda

Dulu masa kecil, selalu tertanya-tanya 'Kenapa nama aku tak ada Nur/Nor/Noor/Nurul macam budak perempuan lain?'

Nama seketul je. Empat huruf.

Nama bapak mak aihh kemain panjang. Doblas huruf.

Mom told me that she would like to name me with Erdayana.

Maybe sekarang my nickname boleh jadi Ana, Yana, Daya, Dayana, Dada, Ya, Na. Instead of Edd.

Tapi alih-alih laki dia bawa balik birthcert, hilang dua suku kata yang terakhir. Dah la jadi nama Indon...

So mom started to call me Sayang. Malu I bila kena usik dengan kawan-kawan. As if I ni gatal sebab boy-friends semua panggil Sayang. Sampai ke primary school, baru I've been recognized according to my real name.

Primary school. I believed that Dad named me after the word Iradah (one of the Sifat 20). Macam root word kepada Iradah giteww! But I wrote my name in Arabic with 'ain ra dal alif. Sampai ke secondary school.

From 4 letters, friends in Uni simplify my name to Edd. By chance, I met this one Arab guy, a master student, staying at the same college in my Uni.

Cafe. He got a tissue and pen down my name in Arabic.

Alif (Hamza) Ra Dhod Alif Maqsura (Ya Tanpa dua titik)

"Your name is supposed to be Irdha, the root word is Radha, means Terima. Irdha is an order, Terimalah."

I sat for Arab Tinggi, ok, masa SPM dulu! I faham la yang Bahasa Arab ni Ada fe'el Madhi (past tense), Mudhori' (present tense) and Amar (arahan)

Tapi kenapa laaaa all this while I never ever realized yang I hidup selama ni atas nama/maksud yang silap? Ok, mom maybe tak tau sebab tak belajar Arabic. Tapi my dad ex KISAS kot..... And no one kat secondary school yang bagitahu, even ustaz ustazah yang ajar I'dadi, Kakak STAM pon. Yelaaa I was nobody to them pon.... Who cares?

Ok...Redha je la.. Terima je la... Untung juga ada makhluk tuhan yang sudi betulkan kesilapan doploh tahun tu..

Ok, nothing to do with that Arab guy. Sebab after all, Im still marrying an Arab guy! Half breed kowt..Pakistani lagi..! Keje I hari-hari Kari. Parpoo suda..

So..until now, kalau ada kawan yang panggil Sayang, they must be my childhood friends (masa age 7 and below, duduk Kuarters Risda Padang Rengas).

Kalau kawan panggil Erda, they must be my primary and secondary school. Terrmasuk la my Uni friends yang tak berapa rapat.

Kalau ada yang panggil Edd, they must be very close to me, since my Uni life (9th college, 11th college, 12th college) and my DPA girls.

Ok. Enough.

~~~~~~~~~~*miss the boat*~~~~~~~~~~

~~~~~~all's well that ends well~~~~~~